my soul yearns for light but has only known darkness,
my hearts voice silenced y the shadows of my life,
the glimpses i feel of purity and right,
are all but reminders of a fleeting light
the pain inside is all I feel
Yet it is by my own hand
The freedom from my cell
is something I must give myself...
free for my own convictions and self loath
Freedom from my own hatred,
I seek the light but end up only deeper in the darkness,
The love once felt is still buried deep,
with ones broken heart the thought of more pain,
is unbearable,
So even as I lie to myself saying it will be ok,
I will find the light again,
I know the truth
The truth that the light is still there
where I abandoned it,
the light waits for me to just look up
and feel the love and brightness that I once knew and loved.
when did I loose my soul to this darkness,
why do I condemn myself to this blackness,
how to free myself...
the answer is simple,
the action is impossible,
it is to forgive...
Shall I forgive my sins,
shall I return to the light,
shall I free my soul from these chains...
or damn myself to this...
is the light worth the pain,
of acknowledging my sins, my brokenness, my hate...
Shall I let myself love...
